Help My Unbelief

I believe, but help my unbelief. Silence the voice that tells me you’re not near whenever you don’t speak. When lies and doubts fill my head remind me to praise you even louder. I know every one of my tears does not go unseen. But if you are my Father why don’t I feel your presence. I make my requests known to you, but I’m still in anguish. Your Word says you give peace that surpasses all understanding, but it’s nowhere to be found. My soul is thirsting for a drop of your goodness… A speck of your joy. But I’m left here all alone. Sending up desperate prayers that may never be answered. Instil immovable faith in me. That no matter how much I sink, I know you won’t let me drown. As the battles grow bigger and the days grow darker I will cling to your promises. I will choose to trust in you over what I feel, because my feelings only lead me astray. Sanctify me by whatever means necessary. That I may come out of this abyss brighter than before. And know without a shadow of a doubt that you carried me all the way.